WHAT WAS I THINKING?!?!?!

Ok - so it's 10:10pm the night before Ironman 70.3 Mont Tremblant and I as per usual am FREAKING OUT.  I don't know why - but all I can think is what in God's name was I thinking?  70.3 miles ahead of me tomorrow and the easy part (the swim) is over so fast it's insane.  I know - once I get out there it will be fun - but it's crazy how freaked out I get the night before a big race.  I mean seriously - I rode 135k 2 weeks ago which included some serious hills, and I rode 130k a few weeks before that as well.  Yet I still feel like I haven't done enough.  And then in the back of my mind - how am I going to get through a full Ironman in 7 weeks…7 WEEKS!!!!!
This morning we were up pretty early to get a short bike and run in before checking in and picking up our race kits.  My legs felt pretty rough on the bike, the run felt ok but not stellar. But I didn't eat anything before heading out so I'm thinking that might have been part of the problem. I'm just hoping they feel better in the morning or it will be a loooooooong day. The check in process was smooth - had to wait in a long line to get in to get our race kits, but once inside the volunteers were lovely and the process went quickly.
As per usual - got swept up in the Ironman expo/gear tent - but behaved myself fairly well in there. It's amazing how much cool stuff they have and I always want it all!!! Although I guess that's the idea at the end of the day.  A lot of stuff will be here in August when I'm back for the full Ironman race, so I didn't go too crazy getting anything and everything that has the IM logo on it.  Not an easy thing to do that is for sure.  I tried to stay off my feet as much as possible - did pretty well with that for the most part.
Now after a fantastic dinner I'm trying to calm myself down and relax, mothers little helper tea and some rescue remedy aren't helping.  Maybe I need more… and my stomach is just in nervous knots.  I am trying to remind myself that I've done a lot of training and things will be fine but it's really hard. Hopefully tomorrow morning once I hit the water (@ 8:04am) I will relax and settle into a groove and just keep plugging away until the race is done.  I'm always shocked at how quickly the race goes by - one mile at a time, and before you know it - there it is, the illusive finish line.  And MAN is that ever a rush when it FINALLY comes into view :) Will be nice to see friends and teammates on the race course and I have to keep reminding myself that I actually do enjoy it - but for some reason the night before the race that seems like an impossible task.
Signing off now - fingers crossed I get some sleep today :)